And a year ago I was incredibly sad and hurt, as anyone would
be. I didn’t understand it then, but there is a grieving process. Not just for
the loss of the relationship, but for the loss of Hope – the hope that things
would get better, that it would all be worth it, that we could get through
anything. But sometimes saying goodbye is the right answer; and for me it was
the only answer.
I was sad. And I let myself be sad (although I tried to not show
it much). But I also faced the realization that my whole future had just
changed – and I had no idea in which direction to head. So I thought about it,
prayed about it, wrote in my journal constantly – and came up with at least the
first steps of a plan for my new life. And then I let go of the sad.
Some people think I was just faking “Being All Better” – well,
of course I was! But I also came to the conclusion that if I had felt any doubt
about the divorce I wouldn’t have gone through with it. But I knew it was the
right answer, the only answer – and I trusted that, so “Being All Better” was
really the only choice.

This is MY life! Yes, I make mistakes – but they're all mine to make. Not that my marriage was all bad, but there are certainly things I blamed him for. And I can't blame him anymore. I have this quote on my wall, and I'm working on having this new phase of my life be everything I want to be.